Today I put my hearing aids in for the first time in months. Why didn’t I have them in? That is a great question. I can’t hear with the masks off of peoples faces let alone with masks muffling their voices.
All of sudden I felt lost. I had people repeat themselves…a lot! Even then, if I didn’t have visual cues to help, I had to work harder to communicate. I have gone home exhausted almost every night that I have refused to wear them.
They don’t hurt. A couple of times today I forgot that I had them in. When I take them out it is like I am trying to hear underwater if you can relate.
They are not hard to put in. Most of the time people don’t ever realize that I am wearing them. Today is the first time in a long time that I was prompted to say, “Shhhhhh.” Because I could hear everything.
So again. Why?
I became comfortable with the struggle of not being able the hear. Living a new way, and being able to hear in a new way is an unknown. It makes me uncomfortable. Well, through this pandemic, and having to be away from people, I have found that connection is much more important than being comfortable. I have made a decision to be uncomfortable for the people that are important to me. I want to stop asking them to repeat themselves, and ask them to expand and share on what I just heard…clear as a bell.